lies here

Apr. 22nd, 2012 01:46 am
kidcomrade: kumatora, mother 3 (waht)
You know what would be nice? To just... not be able to give a shit. Not in a bad way, but in a liberating kind of way. Do you get what I mean?

and not a single fuck was given )
kidcomrade: ted kord and jaime reyes/blue beetles ii and iii, dc comics (blue beetles)
Sometimes I worry about how much I get into fandom.

I mean, it's not like I can't talk about other stuff! I just like a lot of things really passionately.

And, well, the stuff that happens to me in my daily life isn't particularly interesting enough to talk about. None of you guys want to hear me talk for ages about school and whatnot. I also don't really hang out with people very often, or go out... I do have friends, and I do go out, but here at college I'm far away from a lot of them. Also when you go out, things cost money, which I am consistently really short on. It's easier on my wallet, then, to talk to my friends online and spend all my time RPing (because i can't scrape out anything to write otherwise, thanks creative slump) and reading and writing.

I just don't want to be the kind of person who uses fandom as escapism. I have a good life. I don't want to run away from something that's good.
...I'm really worried that I've already started doing this. help.

(On a separate and unrelated note, I saw Chronicle with my roommate tonight. If the internet is anything like it was 2 yeas ago, I am 90% sure there is already a /coq/ thread filled with gay because wow that film had an inordinate amount of bromance. not that i'm complaining, but i can predict these things.)
kidcomrade: travis touchdown, no more heroes (Default)
Whoa. Okay. Good day today, so I'm gonna write about it. :D

on internet and communication )


Mar. 2nd, 2012 02:12 am
kidcomrade: travis touchdown, no more heroes (Default)
Sometimes I worry that I've taken on too much and that I plan things too haphazardly.

I need to stop procrastinating on things. :c I'm shooting myself in the foot by putting stuff off all the time--it's 2 AM and i still need to finish this book, still need to organize this lecture/discussion, still need to catch up on everything.

why am i so slow and off task, i'm not even doing that MUCH.


Feb. 10th, 2012 02:34 am
kidcomrade: jaime reyes, dc comics (unsure.gif)
I've been sick.

I've only been to the gym... once or twice since I said I'd start going? But I didn't want to exacerbate whatever annoying cold/sickness I've got. It's so irritating--I've been sleeping WAY more than 8 hours a night, sitting at home and resting most of the week, taking Dayquil and Nyquil pretty faithfully (as everybody on Plurk can attest to, oh my GOD my Nyquil-induced typos are pretty much golden), but I'm not getting any better and I absolutely hate it.

Mom says I need antibiotics. I am cool with that so long as they get me better.

On a still grumpier note... Iiiii have inevitably fallen behind in my readings for class. Gj, self. I'm not too behind, but I'm still behind--and with a first essay on the horizon (due Monday already?) I'm getting antsy. I need to keep stepping it up. I can't back down now.


Read more... )
kidcomrade: mr. saturn, earthbound (ZOOM.)
I'm falling into my new schedule rather neatly. It's great; light Mondays and Fridays, no school on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and a very tiring but very fun block that lasts, like, ALL DAY Wednesday. I love it--all my classes are super interesting, and I'm enjoying all the books I'm reading. (And in the case of Film Noir, all the movies I'm watching. Omg, everyone go watch Double Indemnity, it's fantastic.) 

Also, I've been sucked into God Hand! It's a hilarious game, and I want to play it in the company of other geeks one day, because.... my roommates will probably think I'm crazy if I play it around them. (Seriously, I scream and yell at my TV. It's scary.) I am really bad at it, as I am at all games, though. 

Uhm. As for other things........ I'm going to start going to the gym again starting tomorrow morning! If I don't, yell at me, guys. Or something. Seriously, it's not even a matter of looking good. Sure, that's a bonus, but I really need to get healthy. My family's health history is this horrible ticking timebomb--high blood pressure on Mom's side, heart problems on Dad's--and if I don't start fixing my habits up now, I'm kind of scared that I'll get sick later on when it could've been prevented now. 

kidcomrade: callo merlose, vagrant story (miss merlose)
I've been diligently keeping track of my classes (read: i stared at my transcript and the requirements website for a really long time just now) and... it looks like I'm on track to graduate next spring. The only breadth requirement (Berkeley requires you to take 7 courses across different academic disciplines, along with your major requirements) that I'm missing is, in a beautiful little coincidence, Arts and Literature, which I'm looking forward to filling in with a nice easy-going drawing class or something like that.

Man. Where'd those two years go?

I can't actually articulate how much I've grown since I started college, it's...really a wonderful thing. This place is such a wonderful learning environment and I've run into so many great people and had so many great professors and I just fgskjdfhngsdkjfsjf.....  ; A ;

Also, I think my personality has grown quite a lot too. I... uh, I used to be very nervous and quiet, but I'm a lot more outspoken now, and I'm actually planning and teaching a class right now which I find amazing. I still can't believe I'm doing this, but I am! And it's great! I also think that, while I'm more selective with close friends than I was before (please see that earlier entry about my Scary Not!Girlfriend), I'm able to talk more freely with strangers/acquaintances which is great.

I want to make more FRIEND-friends though. /clings to new friends....

Anyways, this was going to go somewhere really deep and personal but I'm too happy that I've got my stuff in order to have...done any of that.

Hi Dreamwidth I only have 3 semesters of college left :D
kidcomrade: emir parkreiner, killer7 (how soon is now)
I feel like it's a huge, HUGE cop-out to write a character that's just an expy of oneself.

Read more... )

On a less abrasive note, I would like to become an ESL teacher when I graduate, at least for a time! Maybe to save up money for graduate school, maybe just to see what life's like in another country...!

The best countries to go are in Asia, apparently--Korea, China, Taiwan, and Japan. I was thinking about France, but maybe I'll just visit; I've read that in Europe, ESL classes prefer British English over American English and hahahahaaaa i might get laughed at for my American accent...

oh wow

Jan. 6th, 2012 12:26 am
kidcomrade: kumatora, mother 3 (waht)
I haven't written since Christmas! ;;

Happy new year, everybody! I ended up having a lot of lovely holiday parties with friends and family, with only minimal rockiness. Whiiich I will go on about under the cut.

tl;dr don't get drunk when you know you're an annoying drunk )

The Christmas party with my family was wonderful, though--my oldest cousin announced that she was getting engaged, which was wonderful! I also was also consistently in really cute outfits at every party yessss 8)

This is looking like it's going to be a good year though. I've got a lot upcoming: [community profile] heroesparadise opening, planning Batman class with my cofacilitators, actually trying to read all the things I need to for class, going to the gym more (god this holiday made me gain SO MUCH WEIGHT SOBSOBSOB).... I also have a big wad of New Year's Resolutions which I am expecting to get to. eventually. 

I can't believe school starts on the 17th already, too. I'm nervous, but here's hoping for a good semester and an even better 2012!! ; u ;
kidcomrade: travis touchdown, no more heroes (♥ she knew all the secrets.)

This is the first A I have ever gotten as a final grade at Berkeley, ever. 

This is also my first semester as a declared English major, and to have this A happen now... well, it means a lot to me.  I could cry.

A lot of venting and words behind the cut. )
kidcomrade: travis touchdown, no more heroes (¶ seek the real enemies.)
I never really know what to say because my life is kind of boring and there's no real life-changing event that's caused me to make a Dreamwidth account. I'm also very used to, y'know... Microblogging on Tumblr and posting occasional dumb things, like "omg look at this" or "omg i'm so hungry" and whatnot.

So, uh....

Hello, everyone! How're the holidays going for you all? I'm taking this time to relax and mull over what has been a very long year. (And by mull I mean sit on Tumblr all day and chuckle to myself and not do anything productive.) I feel kind of guilty being this lazy, but hey--it's nearly Christmas, I deserve a break.

It's odd, though, it doesn't seem very Christmas-y yet. Even though it's in like, 3 days. Maybe it's just how tough this year has been for, um, everyone, but there's just been more things to worry about than Christmas and it's been sitting in the back of my mind and oh look it's the end of December how did that happen. 

Maybe I'm just getting older and the magic of Christmas is being lost a bit? Ehhhh... I dunno. I'm still too braindead a week post-final exams to think so deeply on these things.

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